I am proud to be an American. In 2005 I became an American Citizen. It was my choice!!
Well, like so many I too have this years elections as the main thing streaming through my mind right now. How could we not with so much garbage streaming across the airways. Sadly as far as I am concerned there isn’t a good candidate, there hasn’t been for years, so I ask everyone to think hard before they vote in the next few days. Really look at what is good for our country right now. Pick one of the lesser of two evils if you can and then lets all move toward making this country a thing to be proud of. For me I get to listen to my Canadian family laugh at the nuts we have in office, and the way that everyone has gone crazy disrespecting this country for four long years. Perhaps with the end of the election will come the end of all the slinging of shit, and our politicians will get down to the job of running this country for the people, by the people so help me God.
Well I thought I had it. Yep. I was feeling pretty weird, sickish, but not real sick for about ten days. Strange sore throat which I still have off and on, hot and cold spells, a bad night of night sweats, fatigue, headaches, and a few other things. Luckily no fever, but I still called the clinic and they put me through to their screening booth.
Interesting events unfold when you suspect the dreaded Covid. They asked me a whole round of questions, decided I needed to come in for testing, what with my age, history of asthma, and symptoms. And, when I showed up for the appointment they had set up I was greeted at the door
First though I had to call from my car to alert them to my presence on the grounds. Once in the room the treatment team looked like characters out of ET. Well not quite so intense, but it still made me feel ” contaminated.”
Still learning, still searching the data banks.
I will admit I was a little scared. After hearing all the serious things that have happened to some folks who have had the virus, I was definitely frightened. We have tried to be cautious, but I think we are all getting a little lax in our protection.
With a sigh of relief I can tell you I am virus free. The test was negative, but I think she hemorrhaged my brain reaching to the farthest depths of my inner sinuses. I felt the burn as she rammed then twirled that swab to the inner sanctum of my nose. I would have suffered more if I had needed too, and I have in the past, just to be sure that all was well within.
I know that lots of people have had this dreaded disease and survived just fine. It’s the ones that have gotten so sick that makes me pause and take a breath. I have had breast cancer, as you may be aware, so I know what it is to fear having something that could potentially kill you. Okay, the Covid virus isn’t as serious as cancer, but for some it has been horrific. We must not take away from those poor folks and their struggles.
Don’t let the meanies get to you.
I hope that anyone who actually catches this dam virus, including the president and his team, who may be suffering right now, has a fast recovery, with minimal side effects. We still don’t know all the symptoms or lasting effects of the Covid virus. It is something we all wish was only studied in books, not real life.
I say take care of you, love your loved ones, as in a blink of an eye, they or you could be gone. And we must appreciate this great big world we live in. There is so much beauty, so many wonderful things. We have so many blessings to hold dear. Don’t let the media or anyone else take away your happiness. If they try question their motive. People that don’t want others to be happy are evil. At the very least they are shitty people. And as I always say, have a great day TODAY.
Sometimes I can’t wait for things to happen. Okay, most times. I am not a planner, more the “when it hits me”in the moment kind of person. Often I decide what I want to do for the day, or the minute, right at that time. It’s like the excitement slams into me and away I go. I don’t usually like to plan too far ahead because I may not feel like doing anything that far into the future. I hate to disappoint people if we make plans and I cancel because sometimes the energy gets lost in the wait.
Well that very thing happened to me. The energy was leaving my body as I had to wait for almost two weeks to get my hair cut. I had found a shop that was suppose to have these really good hairstylist, but they didn’t have anyone available until the end of my vacation. I wanted it cut now so I could get use to the short “do” while lounging around the house. No trips for me thanks to the virus.
I had such an overpowering “urge” to get my hair cut ” right this minute” that I called another place, and in my haste I went there instead. They said she was good with short hair. I foolishly believed them.
I could tell right away she was a newbie by the way she washed my hair, really gently, so gently that I almost couldn’t feel her fingers moving. It was like she was afraid I would start screaming in pain if she pressed a little hard. I wanted to tell her to “have at it” as I have been known to be hard headed, but I didn’t want to spoil her zen.
When we were done with the wash the comb traveled at the sped of a snail through my hair. Everything seemed to be going in slow motion. I finally had to ask how long she had been doing hair. ” Since December” she replied, ” almost a year.” It was September now.
Dread hit me hard as I watched her scissors slicing through my hair. First this way, then that way her comb and scissors moved. And, the direction was always upward.
What the hell?
I will tell you that once upon a time I graduated from beauty school. That’s what it was called back then. I did not go on to become a hair dresser because I had no talent. My future flashed before my eyes at graduation. All I saw were bobby pins and old ladies. I shivered and moved on to factory work. That I was good at!
But, what I learned was that as you ” raise” the scissors and hair upward the hair gets shorter. Makes sense right. Did I mention that I had a picture of the hair cut I wanted. I had a front and rear view as I have had bad experiences in the past. These did not help her.
She showed me the back once as she questioned ” is this alright.” It hit me that she didn’t have a clue about cutting hair. It was all chopped up into layers. Not pretty layers that blended well, but chunks of layers, like a staircase. Not at all like the picture that was suppose to be almost one layer to the nap of my neck.
I pointed this out, and she said ” oh I’ll fix that” as if she could magically put my longer hair back, and continued slicing upward. After a few minutes I finally had to tell her to stop it was so short and lopsided. I pointed out that my haircut did not even look like the picture and all she did was bat her eyes at me.
I jumped out of the chair and told her to leave it, and like a coward I paid and left. What I really wanted to do was yell for the manager and scream my disgust over the terrible hair cut I had just received. And how dare they tell people that ” Katy was good with hair” when she cuts like a butcher.
I shed a lot of tears when I got home, and for several days afterward as I tried to moose down the flying chunks that wouldn’t stay put. Then I remembered the tears I shed when chemotherapy took all my hair away. I guess I better be glad with what I have before it gets taken away again. See, there is always a positive way to look at life even when your are pissed. Have a great day!
Just a quick note to let you all know that I am about to do the scariest thing in the world! Know what it is? Of course you don’t so I will share. I WILL BE RELEASING A BOOK ON AMAZON in the next couple of days.
It is terrifying for me as I am a very private person, and I will be sharing some personal things through my story. What is the scary part you may ask? Okay ask it.! I had breast cancer, and I didn’t die. I was afraid I might, but I was lucky. I did not.
My book is a smattering of my trip through the cancer maze with a few of my own opinions thrown in for good measure. I think the book has a very important message to share with others. Things I feel need said. So just to wet your whistle here is a blurb out of the book. I hope I tickle your interest.
“I CAN HEAR THE POUNDING of footsteps close behind me. I can almost feel the vibrations of the ground beneath my feet as if a tyrannosaurus were hot on my heels. The air is filled with their stinky breath as I race ahead, and they race behind, closing the gap. Sweat pours down my back as I sense the outcome. Louder and harder their feet hit the ground, and then suddenly I am surrounded by a herd of people draped in pink for October, “Breast Cancer Awareness Month.” God, I hate it!
We all need something to sling us into the future and get us off our butts. Right! We need to become active in creating the life we want. Not just sitting around whining about the past. How do we do this you might ask?
Well, it is the people we let into our lives. Yep! The very folks that hang with us can bring us down or lift us up. Even the music we listen to, and the movies we watch, influence our way of thinking. We just aren’t paying attention, but we should.
All day, everyday we absorb the energy around us. The happiness that may be given off by someone or the anger that another is spewing has an effect on how we are feeling. It influences how we react to the world around us.
Don’t believe me take a moment and look at some happy pictures on the internet. You pick the genre, but spend a few minutes looking at puppies, or babies, or things in nature. Look at what brings a little joy to your heart. I promise if you do this it will lift your mood.
Now, I am not challenging you to let the feelings in as a contest to prove that you won’t. I am saying open yourself to the feelings that might flow in. We have to open ourselves up to the good experiences in life. There is much that surrounds us that can lead us back on track to feeling good. To finding a purpose in life.
I love Ed Sheeran. I am almost seventy years old and I just love his music. I wonder how such a young man can create such powerful love songs. One of my favorite ” youtube” videos is Ed Sheeran singing with the great opera star Bocelli. If you want to hear something beautiful watch that video. The amazing part of the video is that two unique, talented individuals generations apart came together to bring us something beautiful. What a blessing!
Both of these great musicians have come far in their music journey crashing through many obstacles along the way that only made them stronger. We too must find the things that will make us stronger. Things that have the power to move us forward when our life has stalled.
It’s in the details.
My life has stalled many times. I have been creative, but lack the will or determination to follow through. I let self doubt get in my way. I took the easy out, the security of an eight to five.
Something I have learned along the way is that all great people, big and small, have one thing in common. Determination. They did not quit. They did not let the hurdles placed in front of them deter them from what they wanted to do. What they wanted to create. The rest of us, me included, let self doubt and fear create a wall.
So, the first thing we must do is bring things into our life that will lead in the direction we really want to go. Read books, listen to moving music, bring good people into our life. You wouldn’t want a bad tennis player to teach you how to play tennis. Why let a bad life coach teach you how to live a shitty life. Did you know our friends are our life coaches?
Long ago I had a dear friend. Together we had a dream. Sadly life got in our way or we let it, I don’t know which it was, but we put away our dream and went our separate ways.
Later I found out that this dear person who had been a part of my life for several years died from breast cancer. It was the demon that actually challenged both of us at different times in our lives. I fortunately won my battle, she did not. Cancer does that, it takes away, and it leaves behind some of the wounded.
I have included a little clip at the bottom of the this page that is from a meditation tape we made together years ago. It is called ” Chakra Lights Meditation.” Stress management was and is a big topic. We taught a variety of classes on stress and mediation. We had a dream. I am going to revive that dream and offer this great meditation to all of you in the near future.
The part I included is the beginning relaxation section. Something most of us do not do enough of. And I don’t mean sitting down in front of a television or blurring out on the internet. I mean really relaxing and letting go of the tension that has built up throughout your day. Taking a moment to let go is the beginning to feeling better. To moving in the right direction.
A major step in making life changes is to let go of the garbage floating around us. There are many things that just don’t matter. Sometimes just taking a minute to breathe will help us refocus and get about our day. I hope this little segment will help. Have a great day today.
